Date: Sun, 05 Jan 1997 01:32:18 -0800 From: laura@goodkitty.com (Laura Werner) Subject: Laura's latest First
A few of you might have noticed that I haven't written any "My First ..." posts in some time. Now that I've been in the scene for a while, I'm just not having as many new, first-time experiences. But I had one last week while I was visiting Rosy.
We were doing a spanking and paddling scene on the floor in front of the
fireplace. I topped Rosy first, and then after a bit of recovery time it
was her turn for revenge.
After I was well tenderized, Rosy spanked me for a while with the cherry
paddle I gave her on my last visit, and it started to really hurt. She
then said that she'd spank me until I told her that I was ready for ten
more hard ones from that cherry paddle. She whacked me with various other
implements, including the dreaded Air Vinyl, for a little while, and then I
wimped out and asked for those last ten.
Wow. Those last ten swats must have been nearly as hard as Rosy could
swing the paddle, because they _hurt_. They hurt so badly, in fact, that I
started crying from the pain. Sobbing, even. That's right. Even though I
keep chiming in on the "Pain alone won't make me cry" side whenever we talk
about crying, that actually happened to me. It was a bit scary at first,
but as soon as I got used to the idea it was ok. Extremely painful, but
ok.
I'm still not sure if pain _alone_ could do it though. This time the pain
was definitely the what got my crying started, and it was what I kept
crying about rather than switching over into a more general emotional
catharsis. But without the emotional openness and vulnerability that I've
developed over the last six months or so, I'm not sure I would have been
free enough with my tears even under all that pain.
Laura,
who will have another very large first under her belt in 2 weeks.